How many of us feel that the whole world at times seems to be ganging up on us? Too often in the past month ( actually it has BEEN the whole month) have i felt nervous. If it isnt one thing its another. Its a very unsettling feeling and it makes me ill all the time.

I bring this up because, after i thought i had completed all the stressful things in my life for the moment, more was sprung on me just a few minutes ago.

Firstly, i was tutoring one of my students and she expressed to me her want to stop meeting. Its nothing i was doing wrong i dont think. She just wants her lunch hours back. Either way it makes me feel as though i just failed some how. Could I have done something wrong? Was it too boring? Will the teachers think i am just a terrible tutor?

Secondly, I was just notified that i have to be evaluated on my job. I guess i should have remembered but i didnt. So, Monday morning i am having a meeting with my boss to talk about me and my job. i have a really bad feeling about it for some reason. Maybe because i am rarely doing work, not because im lazy but because as far as ive been told i have no work to do, i feel like im going to be punished. And what if they tell me that i wont be able to renew my contract in January? I just moved out and i will have to find a new job! *GULP*

Next, i am spending my first night at my new place tonight. Thats an exciting thing for sure but i am still nervous about it. We have no time to do groceries and my roommate hasnt got her bed or anything in yet... so Im feeling a little unorganized.

Fourthly, Tomorrow i have to come into work on my day off to do another persons job because she will be away for the day. The scary part of that is that i dont know what i am suppose to do for her job. I know i have to check her e-mail and answer them... but i cant remember how. She has all these special folders and what not. If students apply where am i suppose to put their applications and what do i send them? What if its an embassy?

Fifth and not finally but i think it is the last one i will mention in my blog, I am sick. I had to spend my entier weekend working and moving while having burning eyes, sneezing, swore throat and now my stomach isn't feeling so great. Will I ever get a chance to slow down and get better? I guess when i am away this weekend i will get a chance to relax somewhat. My best friend and sister and her mom and sister will make me laugh and have a good time for sure. I might not get much rest but i'll be having fun.

I wonder when my world will get consistant. Do you think it could happen?

SO, Im sitting here at work getting set to write about pain and while i am looking for a picture of someone in pain (sounds morbid but really it isnt like that) i was getting pictures of bread. I guess thats because Pain = Bread in French. Now i am not so sure if i want to talk about bread, which i love, or pain, which i am feeling.

i think i will write about my itchy foot. See i am wearing a pair of hiking boots which are laced up and the last thing i want to do is untie them so that i can scratch my foot. But you know when you get an itch that starts to hurt because it is so itchy? well, it is becoming one of those itches. But it is taking my mind off of the terrible pain I am feeling in my stomach.

Yestuday i took a pain killer that i think didnt settle with me well because while it chose not to cure my pain it also made me feel so sick i was barely able to move. Can someone say helpful? i sure didnt think it was!

All of this was happening, of course, while i was suppose to be packing all my stuff up for my upcoming move. I actually started getting home sick before my stuff was even moved. SIlly eh? i am such a mama's girl. But when i was able to move again ( I had to run to the washroom to throw up) then i was able to finish up some more packing until i ran out of boxes. I lead a very fun life eh? Anyone want to trade places with me for a day? I could transfer to you my pain, packing, itchy foot and stress as well as a slightly boring job and i could take you spot in what would seem heavenly i bet.

I just finished a Passionate Peach Citrus Five Alive. Its a good drink. Dave, i think i still prefer the regular Five Alive. Im a fan of the sour taste you get from the lime or whatever it is. But peach is still good. i could live with it for sure.

I just realized my foot isnt that itchy anymore so i dont have to undo my boot. YEAH! Let me leave now because i need to take some pain killers. Yeah! ( said much less enthusiastically).

How long is a mile?

I asked myself that question on my trip up to New York while sitting uncomfortably beside someone i didnt know very well. This rant will end when a mile is over because i went on such a rant while driving to see how long it was and how many thought i could cram into one little bit of time.

It turned out that a mile was longer then i had expected but i thought of so many things. one such thing was "why do certain trees change different colours than the same specie of tree?" or, i wonder what i am going to do as leader at a youth retreat with youth i dont really know? I pondered what trouble my brother and his friends were going to cause me and what embarrassment they might succeed on hitting me with. As well i thought of the food we would eat. Is it going to be good food or will i starve this weekend?

If you think i mile is up, there is no way. I had many other thoughts. I wonder if i brought the right amount of clothes for this trip or if any of the clothes i brought would look stupid at a retreat. Then i told myself to stop being so silly. I had no one to impress anyways. With that thought exhausted I moved onto the weather. Is is too cold out to do much? is it going to rain the whole weekend? Boy its dark out here so early. What am i goign to do to keep myself busy so i dont follow the youth around?

While going 60 miles an hour i managed to fill a mile. So this is how long a mile really is. Of course the speed you are driving can limit your thoughts. Here ends a mile.

PS if you didnt read that with normal thought pauses and good punctuation then you still didnt complete a mile. It really is quite long. I assure you. Try it out some time.

I have finally taken a picture of myself on my cell phone (hence it looking disgusting) with my glasses on and i am in my yellow office which is also hard not to see. And can you guess where the window is? not a very hard guessing game.

So as I promised, i got you guys a picture of me with my glasses on. Do i look more intellectual? I sure dont feel it. Maybe i just a bit dizzy. and i think i look like i am fighting sleep in that picture. And my face looks long andim not smiling... im gonna stop looking at it now.

wow, I have to come back to the fact that i tool this picture of myself. Do you know how hard it is to get a pcture of yourself on a cell phone? This one still sucks and that was after i dont know how many tries. For some strange reason, the phone pictures always make you look FAT! I sent one to my friend Vijay and he probably thought i started eating a whole lot when he went back to India ( isnt that right Vij?)

Behind me is one of the only things i have in my room to make it nice. And as you can see, it is mostly empty as well. Sad office eh? I want it to look al cozy and nice but when are you suppose to decorate your office when you are suppose to be working? (not that a lot of that happens here with me, i usually write on my blog or write e-mails). You cant hide the fact that you arent working when you decorate your office though. So... ya.

I was accepted for an appartment. I am so excited because i ge tto moev out in November. I just found out though that the day i mentioned i was moving out my six year old brother cried all day about it. I dot remember him doing that at all. It may seem strange to many of you but i am his second mom so itsa big deal for him. (Me being 22 and him 6) But i plan on making him feel very important during the moving process so he might become excited about it. My 16 year old brother on the other hand will be rejoicing when he hears i will be leaving. He is so excited to have his own room finally.

I am wearing this awsome skirt today that is from Guatemala. I would put a picture of me in it because i love my outfit today but i dont think i can do that with my cell phone on my own. it would be quite interesting if i could. But it is just very colourful and nice. thats why i like it. (cause most people like things that arent nice, duh)


This is the most wonderful thing i get to see at work and its been three weeks now. It is a man on a cherry picker painting the outside walls of my building. i think i mentioned it a while ago and how it was giving my headaches. If not, it was and is. First he was removing ivy from the walls, then he was filling the walls holes and then he had to cover it al up with some pain thting and then... second coat. So, at the moment he is gone. It is the first lunch hour i have had in ages withuot hearing the engine right outside my office. you have no idea how nice it is. And not having to smell the plaster or paint they were spreading on the wall has been very nice as well.

I am sure he is a very nice man but i was not happy that his job had to be outside my window. I remember walking into my office and sitting down and then i turned my head and saw this man at my window. Heart attack anyone? I almost had one thats for sure.

Im listening to the Spice girls. Its fun. Viva forever. its a pretty snog and it is the only one i have so no one has to disassociate with me. that would make me sad because i would have to stop listening to the song. Friends can be replaced but good music is hard to find (just kidding about the replacing my friends).

Anyways, i think thats enough from me today. I shall write another time.

Welcome to this session of Katie's blog. Today i have absolutely no idea what it is I plan to talk about but i thought it would be fun to just type whatever it is that pops into my head. Is everyone ready? I sure hope so cause this will likely not make much sense to anyone but myself. Although perhaps a few people might recognize some thoughts pertaining to them or other people they know, the majority of it will go right over their heads. And i am able to say this even though i havent actually started to talk about nothing. Amazing that this introduction can go on for so long eh?

Im not sure where one starts with a stream of conciousness because they have to have an original thought. My mind seems to be pretty empty at this moment... except for the fact that i get to go out tonight with "the boy" and that is alwaya fun and gives me a nervous/exciting feeling. I am meeting "the friends" tonight and that shoudl be... well i tend to just get a little quiet around new people.

Dinner is yummy. i get to go out and eat tonight. Does anyone else ever worry about who is paying when they go out for dinner? I always feel weird when it comes to paying because what if the person is thinking that they dont want to pay but they are doing it because they think you expect them to but really its just a big misunderstanding.

I went to a Tim Hortons on the way to Montreal and the picture above is the sign that they had in the parking lot. I was surpirsed i didnt see "Breathing" on that list. Everything is not allowed in that tiny parking lot. However i had someone tell me that i would be surprised with what happens at small places like that in small towns. So i shut my mouth. The sign is still i riot... at least i think so.

My eyes are burning. I have been sneezing all day and have used a whole kleenex box just because of allergies. What sucks most about that though is that i dont actually know what i am allergic to. Something in the air and it is very unpleasant.

Knitting is a lot of fun. I finished making a scarf today... well i finished what i could. i dont actually know how to finish a scarf. Anyone else know how? i think i am going to take it to someone i know tomorrow and have them teach me how to finish my scarf. Its a really nice green colour. I find myself a big fan or Green and purple these days though it seems i find myself a big fan of lots of colours these days, each day brings another favourite colour. I cant seem to make up my mind on anything these days.

Cake is really yummy, i got to eat a birthday cake last night with candles that were put on my cake to for a 22. it was fun, though the candles were all too close together so it was easy to blow them all out. Chocolate chip cake was what we had and i always love that cake. Some would think it was boring but i enjoy it very much.

My stream of conciousness is making too much sense so perhaps now is the time for me to end it. I did listen to my dads song that he wrote me today though. i love it so much. I always want to cry when i hear him singing it. I get embarrassed when it gets to the part where he is unable to sing because he lost his voice so he speaks it and it isnt quite on beat but it is a precious gift that i will treasure always. he wrote me another poen this birthday too and it is also amazing. To have a gift with words... i would love it... but we all know i dont. Anyone who reads this can say that with certainty.

I really have to pee. So that will end my stream of thought that was too understandable i find. i appoligize for its lack of humour... it was much too normal.

Ever have one of those days where EVERYTHING seems to go wrong? Well i sure had one of those today. ( the picture is meant to depict utter confusion and it was the closest thing i could find to look like a bad day even though that was taken on a very good day. No one has to know so SHHHH!)

First i woke up in absolute agony because i decided to go running again and over did it for starting up again. So my legs are in pain. So i could barely walk but i went running again just the same. I didnt feel anything until after my shower when i attenmpted to come down the stairs.

Next i got to wrk and did absolutely NOTHING all day. I hate having nothing to do. It makes me bored and sad and annoyed. I downloaded musci nd talked on MSN all day. Brutal!

Next i went to dance but locked my keys in the car. i was lucky that my trunk doesnt close and had been tied shut with a hanger so i had to shove my arms in the trunk crack and undo a hanger blindly.

Then i got lost... in my own neightbourhood. How does one do that? I guess you have to be me. So now i sit here and i am filthy from the car and tired from work and dance and running and walking and my new roomate is not home yet and she has a tendancy to get lost so far, so i am a little worried about her. So i will just have to wait and hope.

Some good news: The Sens won their game against Toronto. It had to go to shoot outs and they won. YEAH!!! Not that i care too much. But i bet it made Dave mad, didnt it Dave?

Well, may my day tomorrow go better then today. i know for sure i wont be running tomorrow. I bet i wont be able to get out of bed tomorrow:(

Anyone else seeing in 22's? Does anyone know WHY there are twenty two Winnie-the-Poohs carrying a blue balloon? Its because its my 22nd birthday today and i felt i should have 22 representatives on my blog to witness my announcement.

Are you ready for my announcement yet?

Here is goes: " Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday dear MEEEEE,
Happy Birthday to ME!"

Thank you for your patience. Let me go eat cake now. Actually i have to wait but i got this really yummy looking Caramilk cake. I look forward to eating it. I something that i really like abouy the cake is there is a milk chocolate question mark on it and i get to eat it. YEAH chocolate!