How many of us feel that the whole world at times seems to be ganging up on us? Too often in the past month ( actually it has BEEN the whole month) have i felt nervous. If it isnt one thing its another. Its a very unsettling feeling and it makes me ill all the time.

I bring this up because, after i thought i had completed all the stressful things in my life for the moment, more was sprung on me just a few minutes ago.

Firstly, i was tutoring one of my students and she expressed to me her want to stop meeting. Its nothing i was doing wrong i dont think. She just wants her lunch hours back. Either way it makes me feel as though i just failed some how. Could I have done something wrong? Was it too boring? Will the teachers think i am just a terrible tutor?

Secondly, I was just notified that i have to be evaluated on my job. I guess i should have remembered but i didnt. So, Monday morning i am having a meeting with my boss to talk about me and my job. i have a really bad feeling about it for some reason. Maybe because i am rarely doing work, not because im lazy but because as far as ive been told i have no work to do, i feel like im going to be punished. And what if they tell me that i wont be able to renew my contract in January? I just moved out and i will have to find a new job! *GULP*

Next, i am spending my first night at my new place tonight. Thats an exciting thing for sure but i am still nervous about it. We have no time to do groceries and my roommate hasnt got her bed or anything in yet... so Im feeling a little unorganized.

Fourthly, Tomorrow i have to come into work on my day off to do another persons job because she will be away for the day. The scary part of that is that i dont know what i am suppose to do for her job. I know i have to check her e-mail and answer them... but i cant remember how. She has all these special folders and what not. If students apply where am i suppose to put their applications and what do i send them? What if its an embassy?

Fifth and not finally but i think it is the last one i will mention in my blog, I am sick. I had to spend my entier weekend working and moving while having burning eyes, sneezing, swore throat and now my stomach isn't feeling so great. Will I ever get a chance to slow down and get better? I guess when i am away this weekend i will get a chance to relax somewhat. My best friend and sister and her mom and sister will make me laugh and have a good time for sure. I might not get much rest but i'll be having fun.

I wonder when my world will get consistant. Do you think it could happen?