Life is precious and so short.

I was grocery shopping with my mom today when we received a phone call from a friend and neighbour. Her sons best friend died last night in a fire. Not only is her son my neighbour but he is like a brother.

i see him hurt and i am hurting so much. Im fighting tears right now for him, and his friends family. I cant cry though because my neice and nephew are here and they wouldnt understand seeing their aunty crying. So i will fight it.

Death is such a curse. And yet it is the way life is. I am in prayer on and off since the phone call because my "brother" does not love God. He actually really resents him. And so, with this event, i believe it will be a turning point. Either he will be shown love by us who love God and will have his heart softened, or he will harden it even more.

Death can happen to us at any time. Live every day as though its your last. How many of us actually do that?

Time: 7:05 am
Location: my office
Day of the week: Saturday
Time of wake up to get here for 7:00: 5:30

I am suppose to be invigilating a test this morning ( this occurs a lot these days) and i never received an e-mail other then the initial invitation to come and do it. So i waited for an e-mail that never came and so had to come to my office to check my archived messages to find out what time i had to be at the university. Im a little annoyed with myself because i thought i was suppose to be there for 7:30 when really i have to be there for 8:45. I cant be upset and im not but my eyes are burning due to lack of sleep since i got home from work last nigh at 11:30 and didnt sleep until at least 12. So 5 hours is not good enough for me. Ill likely be a zombie tomorrow.

Anyways, just thought id let you know that i had a very early day today and walking to work i maybe saw 5 people. And people get all uptight when i walk home at night? im pretty sure its more dangerous early on Saturday mornings. I enjoy the peace of the walk though. Many people dont get it... i dont really care though. Its my outlet since singing has stopped.

Stripes are cool. No honestly. think about it. They have the power to either make you look thinner if they are running up and down or the power to make you look as though you have gained weight when they are going from right to left. I just thought of how neat that was because i am wearing a striped shirt. i wont disclose to you which direction they are going. It isnt that important anyways.

I have less then a month left of work and i still have no word from anything. I have been looking at Montessori schools b ut i would have to take some trainging... i am now trying to see if i have to pay through the nose to get that trainging or if it isnt that bad. I am also thinking about starting my own tutoring business. It would be a fun idea and i am getting more and more experience with tutoring. So... we shall see. Im not terribly worried ab out what will happen though. If i must, i can go back into retail though it really is my last resort.

I got to see a bunch of my friends for the first time in a while not too long ago. I walked into a room and a ton of them were there. Most were busy so i didnt really get to chat with them but it was nice to see them. And i got to chat with my friend James and some others who were in the same room. It was like being back in last year.Sometimes i miss it, not being involved in the same things as i was... but what can you do when you dont have time? New things come and old things go.

Im in a very happy place right now. things are well with family, friends and i now know i have a boyfriend rather then being unsure. He and i are getting better at talking too. i knew it would get less difficult (im not a very good talker until i am totally comfortable). The other day he did the sweetest thing. He knew i was at dance and he came to my place to drop off some flowers with a really cute and funny card attatched. Just a really sweet gesture that i was not expecting. I walked in my front door and as i went down the stairs i saw flowers and thought that someone got confused until i saw my name on the card. I knew right away who they were from and the smile still hasnt vanished from my face.

I think it is going to be rare that this blog is weird. It was my goal to make it strange but it takes too much out of me to come up with random things. So it has no theme. As the name of it says, it was created for the purpose of leaving comments on others blogs. So I am free to change the style of my blog at any time.

Stay tuned.

Think its about time for an update? I sure do. I am so not a blogger, its funny.

Well whats new? Lots actually.

First things first, i am currently living in a snowglobe. I love the feeling and the look. When i say that it means i am inside but near a window where all i see are huge, beautiful white snow flakes falling down around me. So i am not egtting wet at all but i feel like it is falling on my directly. I love it.

as for the rest of life... I am going to be jobless in a short while. Thats always a scary thought. I am thankful in a sense because it opens the dor to teaching which is what i shoudl be doing instead of administration which i suck at without a doubt. I just have to find the job and i hate that part.

I cant seem to get my internet working. Everything is hooked up too. So i am confused. Dave, are you gonna come and look at it?

things are progressing. you can take that however you think it is meant. i know what i maean and that's what matters.

I get to give a placement test today... well three to be exact. its neat to be able to do that. I also got to invigilate a test on Saturday and it was so ... well boring but neat at the same time. I hate having to see people struggle so much and be so tense but it is still a neat process to watch. and getting payed 15$ an hour is kind of nice when it just involves walking around a room looking for cheaters.

working two jobs and tutoring 4 students ( it was 5) is a challenge but busy is better then being bored i think.

i love my appartment, though i am rarely there.

I think i finally figured out how to use my washer and dryer. i find it one of the most confusing things ever. the one at my parents place is so stright forward... i dont enjoy it. I was actually up until one waiting or my clothes to dry. Needless to say, it was a bad nights sleep.

anyways, im goignt o enjoy the snow and stop wasteing time here when i shoudl be working.

Well, i can no longer deny it. I AM A NERVOUS WRECK!!! Never thought i would ever admit it but it seems i am a very stressed person. Sheesh!