Difficulties with distance

So many people have good intentions to keep in touch with others if they move or go off to school. Its really a sincere desire to remain in touch and to have regular e-mails or conversations with people. But why is it that those sincere desires fade into practically non-existance?

In the past, i have had several people i have wanted so badly to keep in touch with. And for a while we did. But then this feelign of being forgotten sets in. They dont e-mail you a response or you 'get busy' and postpone a response and BAM! Connection with that person is lost in the way you were motivated to have it. Now you communicate randomly. Random communication is still nice but, it too, fades and does so pretty quickly.

With Dave so far away this has, thankfully, not been an issue. Usually we meet online every morning and sometimes in the afternoons as well. We do devotions and catch up on each others days and then we have to go and do our individual things. For us, i think the problem is miscommunication. I have a bad habit of just typing out or speaking what i am thinking without making it sound the way i mean it too. And with typing you can misinterpret so many things in various ways. And i find, regularily, that i am causing some hurt or frustration to him. Unintentionally which is so frustrating because it isnt until i get a reaction that i think, "wow! where did that come from?". If i think about it and have him explain it to me then it all begins to be clear. I am terribkle with my word choice. I always have the best intentions but they come out the wrong way.

Distance sucks. There is no debate about it i dont think. There are ways it is helping our relationship. The majority of our communication is good its just the tone that typing can give off.

In short, i have to start really watching how i say what i say. Instead of ordering in my smiley, kind way which cant be seen or heard, ask when he plans on doing things or suggest my opinion but in a way that is not a demand. I think i tend to give off this tone of not caring if i talk to him or not and it is so NOT the case at all. There is so much work to be done in me.

Starting over?

I decided I really wanted to get back into brushing up my french. So, today I asked the French teacher that I work with (Al) to suggest which book i could use to improve my French. He told me the title of a book but told me that it was very expensive.

He then handed me some pre-tests to have me try out and i guess from there we will see. It is so odd to see the names of certain things that i have completely forgotten about. Article indifinis, article definis, article partifs, les demonstratifs et possessifs...

All I have to say is, most of the time I am just guessing as to what goes where because it sounds right. That isnt going to do me much good I don't think. Plus my online quiz just told me I got 60%. BOOO!!!

Cold weather

I love when the weather turns cooler because i put on my layers, wrap myself in a blanket and wear socks again. I can cuddle and not feel sweaty and feel comfortable in the pants i wear all year long.

For the first time ever, i live in a place wher ei can control the heat. You would think this was nothing really except that our ability to control the heat affects my sister and her family since they cant control the heat. This is really nothing BUT for some reason heat does not distribute itself well in my house.

I wake up and my room is cold. I step into the kitch and start to sweat. The bathroom is not better. It is so warm. Then i step into the living room and it is as though the heat wasnt even on. Honestly, whats wrong with my apartment? I found some vents but they seem to be open and little tiny bits of air are coming out of them.

So, though some people get sick from the fluctuation in temperature outside, it appears that I may get sick from the fluctuation inside. Ill just try to spend more time in the kitchen... although it gets pretty unbareable in there when you get the oven on too.